Well my friend a lot has happened since we last chatted and i think it might be time for and update.
So first of all NEWSFLASH..: He did like me, and after much confession and stupidity we started dating.
Obviously from the title of this, things now are not quite so joyful.
You see, he is quite an awkward boy but thats not or wasnt the problem actually ,that was what attracted me to him just because he was oh so interesting. We got along great a first, and he actually ended up being my first kiss. Everyone was so in on us dating each other and we seemed to one of the worlds most popular couples.
Heres the downfall of that, school slowly became an issue for me. I have always struggled with school but this sememester i had really let myself get behind and was failing almost three classes. I set rules for myself to ensure that i would pass. One of those rules was no talking to the boyfriend on the phone during the weekdays . He didnt seem to like that, and thats what set us off on the wrong foot. I became more and more stressed out and only two months into the realtionship everything he did started to annoy me Literally Everything. We slowly started becoming distant and i cant say that he was the only one at fault for that but frankly i just didnt have the time. and if i was being honest i would say that i was getting bored.
But i knew that i still really liked him and that everythung would be normal if i could just through to summer.
Well we were hanging out one evening and literally we had no chemistry, no emotion. i honnestly dont even think we held hands. So i knew, we were slipping, but i was fighting it.
A week later i got a text message from my friend claming the he had changed his relationship status on facebook and two minutes later i got a call from him saying we were done. And suprisingly i was fine. I wasnt upset , or atleast at the time i wasnt, but even though i wasnt upset but i was hurt. Hurt at the fact that he let facebook know before me, at the fact that he didnt even attempt to text me about our problems before calling it off, at the fact that he blamed it on me saying i didnt like him. EXCUSE ME i think that if i didnt like you i would have the balls to break up with you. But the next day he called me.. regretting what he had done and saying he wanted me back. At that time i relized that not only did i not want him back, i didnt need him back, because i was happy without him. I didnt feel lost without him or empty or any of the stuff your supposed to feel after a break up i actually felt relieved. So i guess in reality he did me a favor, i guess in reality he was right and i did need to be out of the relationship. But were gunna keep that our little secret because he sure as hell is not gunna know that.. he sure as hell will feel bad for breaking p with me , because he didnt upset me. but he did upset my pride.. and for that... well, time will tell :)
<3 Michelle
P.s. in two days is our anniversary... how rich tehe
